Well folks! I had a riot in Calgary, got lost constantly but found some really neat things while lost so it really was a great time. My free spirited friend had quite the surprise for me. On Thursday nite her new love flew in from Mexico. Quite a handsome youngin (24). No plan, no visa, no drivers licence, just two very inlove individuals. Well while she was at her course, I have the priviliage of keeping company this young man who spoke broken English and I no spanish at all. So while I got lost in the Cowtown, I had company while doing it and lots of laughs. One sunny afternoon we went for a 4 hour walk, while crossing the street he threw his arm around me and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek. I had to laugh at the expression on this old crow watching us, I'm sure she thought I was a couger on the prowl. This normally would have bothered me, but screw it let her think what she wants, I was having a great time and I don't care what anyone thinks not anymore anyway.
When I got back to the big smoke, I found my seperation papers and divorce application sitting waiting for me. WooHoo finally I can see the end drawing near.......When I actually have the divorce papers in my hot little hand, we my friends are going to have one hell of a drunk.....the sega continues.....lol
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Reflections
Well, I've found that I'm not as diligient as I'd hoped to be in regards to blogging. My friend, Fairy Mae is much better at articulating her thoughts and feelings than I. No worries, she inspires me with her openess and thoughts on life, love and the weirdness in the world. ........
Tomorrow I'm on my way to Calgary to explore its wonders while I wait for my friend to finish her course on Body Talk...I always enjoy her fresh outlook on life. Shes a free spirit that I absorb her knowledge of things intangible. The energy work she does is amazing and her approach is refreshing. We're heading out to a couple of bars while we're there so it will be fun.....
The Rock and I are getting to know each other very well. He's taught me alot through his openess and yest for life. We've agreed that no matter what happens between us, we will always be friends and that's really important to me. I really feel that he's come into my life when I've really needed him and he feels the same way. He may be younger than I by 9 years but our life experiences are quite similiar. I've felt we've known each other for a long time but its only been 21 days. Neither of us know exactly what we want or even if we want to be in a relationship. For now we enjoy each others company and that's all good. One day at a time, that's all we've promised each other, respect, honesty and caring. What more could I ask for?
These ramblings are enough for the night.....Tomorrow will be another brilliant day and I look forward to what it holds in store for me.....Bubbles
Tomorrow I'm on my way to Calgary to explore its wonders while I wait for my friend to finish her course on Body Talk...I always enjoy her fresh outlook on life. Shes a free spirit that I absorb her knowledge of things intangible. The energy work she does is amazing and her approach is refreshing. We're heading out to a couple of bars while we're there so it will be fun.....
The Rock and I are getting to know each other very well. He's taught me alot through his openess and yest for life. We've agreed that no matter what happens between us, we will always be friends and that's really important to me. I really feel that he's come into my life when I've really needed him and he feels the same way. He may be younger than I by 9 years but our life experiences are quite similiar. I've felt we've known each other for a long time but its only been 21 days. Neither of us know exactly what we want or even if we want to be in a relationship. For now we enjoy each others company and that's all good. One day at a time, that's all we've promised each other, respect, honesty and caring. What more could I ask for?
These ramblings are enough for the night.....Tomorrow will be another brilliant day and I look forward to what it holds in store for me.....Bubbles
Monday, January 12, 2009
Bubbles Dinner
Well, what can I say, it went alright, not as good as I'd hoped. I had invited 9 people and 5 showed up. It's hard not to take it personally when people bail on me, but I keep trying anyway. I have to learn that I can't control the situation, people do things for their own reasons. Granted Legs was sick and didn't want to share and I appreciate that.
But what really ticked me off was Big Bro, he said he was going to come but bailed at the last minute again. I'm getting really tired of his attitude lately. He told me that he'd always be there for me but he's been bailing lately for no reason, and I can't understand it. I asked him outright if I had done something but he said no, but wouldn't explain. Maybe he just can't handle friendship with a woman, maybe I depend on him too much. I was supposed to be one of the guys and they could say anything but lately both Big Bro and J-Man have been excluding me and that's not cool. At least not with me.
Its interesting watching convo going back and forth at dinner, supper or whatever they call it out here. I had wanted everyone to enjoy themselves and not feel uncomfortable. But that didn't happen. Fairy Mae is a super chick, but I could tell she wasn't enjoying herself and didn't know how to fix it. And Gerry, well he was uncomfortable too. What could I do, if everyone had showed up, the atomstphere would have changed and things would have been totally different.
What really blew me away was the Rock, he was so helpful. He helped clean the table and immediately started doing dishes. Can you believe that, the ex would have never done that, he wanted to be waited on hand and foot. Don't get me wrong the Rock likes to be pampered too. I recognize our situation is different, and neither one of us knows where its headed. But he's respectful, and funny and can actually carry on a convo. We'll see one day at a time......
But what really ticked me off was Big Bro, he said he was going to come but bailed at the last minute again. I'm getting really tired of his attitude lately. He told me that he'd always be there for me but he's been bailing lately for no reason, and I can't understand it. I asked him outright if I had done something but he said no, but wouldn't explain. Maybe he just can't handle friendship with a woman, maybe I depend on him too much. I was supposed to be one of the guys and they could say anything but lately both Big Bro and J-Man have been excluding me and that's not cool. At least not with me.
Its interesting watching convo going back and forth at dinner, supper or whatever they call it out here. I had wanted everyone to enjoy themselves and not feel uncomfortable. But that didn't happen. Fairy Mae is a super chick, but I could tell she wasn't enjoying herself and didn't know how to fix it. And Gerry, well he was uncomfortable too. What could I do, if everyone had showed up, the atomstphere would have changed and things would have been totally different.
What really blew me away was the Rock, he was so helpful. He helped clean the table and immediately started doing dishes. Can you believe that, the ex would have never done that, he wanted to be waited on hand and foot. Don't get me wrong the Rock likes to be pampered too. I recognize our situation is different, and neither one of us knows where its headed. But he's respectful, and funny and can actually carry on a convo. We'll see one day at a time......
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Another Weekend Gone By
So where to start...well Friday night I had started going to Edmonton, Stiflers Mom and I, she's nervous traveling, listened to the weather and Sissy and decided not to head out....No worries I'm a pretty easy going person. Well we headed out to BP for some eats with Fairy Mae, then went dancing at the country club.
Met up with an amazing group of guys plus one butchy woman. Had a blast.
Saturday had coffee, went to see Fairy Mae's horses, pretty cool. Something I've always wanted to learn was how to ride horses. Maybe she'll teach me. Went to the singing cafe, sat around listening to the music. I love music, it reaches into my soul. We were supposed to meet up with a whole bunch of people at BD but most everyone bailed. I should be used to it, it happens alot maybe I should be used to it but it pisses me off. Being the nice person, I don't say anything, maybe I should do it to them.....
So today I've invited 10 people for an imprompto dinner party....should be good.....
Met up with an amazing group of guys plus one butchy woman. Had a blast.
Saturday had coffee, went to see Fairy Mae's horses, pretty cool. Something I've always wanted to learn was how to ride horses. Maybe she'll teach me. Went to the singing cafe, sat around listening to the music. I love music, it reaches into my soul. We were supposed to meet up with a whole bunch of people at BD but most everyone bailed. I should be used to it, it happens alot maybe I should be used to it but it pisses me off. Being the nice person, I don't say anything, maybe I should do it to them.....
So today I've invited 10 people for an imprompto dinner party....should be good.....
Saturday, January 10, 2009
New Beginnings
So, you probably realize that I'm a newbie to this whole scene. I'm not sure if this is right for me, not sure if I want someone to read this or just have alot of interal verbage I need to get rid of. My friend told me about this and it sounded interesting. So what to say....well the biggest realization that's come to me lately is that I'm all grown up, this is my life. But who am I, what do I really want out of my life. Sure I've got some great things happening in my life....two great kids, one fantistic granddaughter, wonderful family and fantastic friends....but there seems to be something missing and I don't know what it is.
So I've decided 2009 is going to be mine, I'm going to own this year. Its going to be all about self discovery, saying yes to opportunities instead of worrying about the outcome, something I can't control....but what I can control is my perspective and the pure enjoyment of discovery.......so here I come.....Bubbles
So I've decided 2009 is going to be mine, I'm going to own this year. Its going to be all about self discovery, saying yes to opportunities instead of worrying about the outcome, something I can't control....but what I can control is my perspective and the pure enjoyment of discovery.......so here I come.....Bubbles
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